The Wheels of Anxiety

 I am not doing ok with my new work assignment. I probably am, but I don't feel like it. 

I have had to adapt a lot more than others because I don't complain and I roll with the punches.  

Today I had to file something with the court and it had to be done today.  I have filed a million things but when I went back and looked over my work, I had forgotten to attach a part of the document so I thought I had copied it over and added that part.  I filed twice.  Twice is better than none but I'm worried it will cause problems.  I made phone calls to find out and I got nowhere.  One person said they would probably both get accepted by the court.  

I feel like I've been failing so miserably with mistakes and just not being sure.  I have been told I'm doing fine but this is what anxiety does to me.  I thought why did I have to change my assignment?  It's going to take me time to get to know and understand people. I get that.  In the meantime, my anxiety level is at all time high because I'm terrified of getting yelled at or have someone disappointed in me.  I got enough stress.  Sitting here and trying to work things out step by step is exhausting.

I don't want to go back to my old assignment.  Someone ruined that situation for me.  I just wish someone could wave a magical wand and make these feelings better.  Just please make it go away.

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