I can be wrong

I'll never say I was right about that person in a way to make someone feel bad.  I will say I knew it!  I was right!  I won't make someone feel like they were stupid for thinking someone thought this was ok.

I think I kind of annoyed Corinne this week.  I'm a little surprised and taken aback.  Maybe I'm wrong but I hope the subject isn't brought up again.

The subject was Graham Platner.  She let me know that she was right about him.  It was in a tone that I supported him.  I never said anything about that guy.  I was puzzled how come someone didn't know that they had a Nazi tattoo?  That was for the Maine voters.  I heard him speak on TV and I thought well, I get the appeal.  He knows how to communicate.  

No, I never did not believe the rape allegations or any sexual misconduct.  I thought who thought this guy was a good idea? I never said anything to Corinne. Corinne had hoped he lost in a landslide and I said I kind of wished that Janet Mills hadn't dropped out despite her age.

I had made the comment that I was surprised that Bernie Sanders didn't pull his endorsement and she let it be known that he had. I didn't know that.  I got the feeling the comment was meant to put me in my place.

I wasn't criticizing Bernie. I was surprised that people put so much stock in him like Bernie and Elizabeth Warren.  There's a lot I can rail on for Bernie Sanders about and I wasn't.  I don't dislike Bernie but there's been moments where I wished he would shut the hell up.  Would I vote for the old guy?  Yeah. I would.  I would never say that to Corinne.  She got to see him a year ago and she loved him.  I like the guy too but you can disagree on some things.

This is the thing that worries me with Corinne.  The need to be right or she won't talk to you.  Years ago, I got deleted from being Corinne's friend on Facebook when she found out that I didn't support Scott Walker.  I shied away from politics on Facebook and at work.  I think I liked something a person said about Walker and for about 3 months, she would run away from me when she would see me.  It was so hurtful.  I cried when I realized what she was doing.  I thought what could have happened?  It took me awhile to figure it out.  

I got to the point where I'm like you can't not talk to someone for their political beliefs and I made her actually talk to me when I would ask her questions.  She would look blank at me when I would speak.  It was awful. I don't know what made her come around, but she did.  I thought she knew me all these years and did she think that I was this awful person?  

We had a co-worker she was best friends with who got the silent treatment from her for years because she just kind of had enough of the woman interfering with her.  I understood Corinne's feelings.  Samira was a big old buttinsky and I think it was harsh how it was handled but I understood what made her snap.  They made amends when Samira got sick and Corinne felt awful about it. I said you're friends now and that's what is important. 

I get Corinne and I understand where she comes from but I get nervous when situations like this happens. I don't want to tell her I voted for Mandela Barnes and not Francesca Hong.  I'll vote for Francesca in a heartbeat if she wins the primary.  I know Corinne takes things seriously.  I think she messaged Mamdani to campaign for Fran if she wins.  That would be cool.  I'm not sending anyone messages.

This whole situation makes me feel even lonelier.  I value Corinne and I hate that I have to walk over some things to let her know that she's right. 

I'd rather not hurt someone than make it be known that I was right.  I feel so sad right now.  

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