Had Enough

Glad the week is over.  I think I just had enough.

Today, I wished for my own place.  Well a place for me and mom.  And Precious.  I was annoyed when I came back from the store at lunch.  Charlie was home and he was doing yard work. I felt like an intruder when I pulled into the garage.  I hadn't expected him to come out before I got home.  I didn't know what to do. I hated it. I felt like I was the intruder.  

He's just awkward and I shouldn't be mad or annoyed. I think he's very shy and doesn't know what to say to either of us.  He talked to my brother in-law. I just joked I accidentally hit a garbage can and I usually hit ours.  He just told me to leave the garage door open.  Like a dad.

I can't talk to him about the bath tub.  We're worried about a rent increase and my mom will lose her mind and so will I if we have someone replace that bath tub.  I just wished I lived somewhere else today.  The guys aren't bad landlords.  I'm just feeling like I'm not welcome today.  It's me.  Not them.

I looked up the monster's case online and it looks like he's going to plead guilty.  I'll be damned.  He'll be doing it on Monday. I wish for jail time but I don't think he'll get it.  I suspect when that witness list got filed that things changed.  People know what an awful person he is and he knows a jury wound find him guilty.  

Yeah. It's not lost on me that he could still be living downstairs.  The guys are fine.  I'm just feeling unsettled this week between the hot weather, the unhealthy air and being stuck with the news cycle.  I'm upset about the governor's race here.

On a plus side, I think I actually found a nail salon I can go to that has reasonable prices.  I really wanted to go back to the old one I went to before covid. I can't bring myself to make an appointment after I read their website over.  I feel like if you're five minutes late, you'll be paying an arm and a leg.  I think people behaved too badly during covid that they had to make changes.  I get it.  This place isn't that far from there.  It got really great reviews and looks nice. I want to drive by there this weekend to see it and I'll make an appointment.

I need to do something nice for myself.  It's not easy living in fascist world. 


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