Another Day to Chill

I'm so thankful.  I needed this. I have a hair cut this morning and later, I'll take my mom to city hall to drop off her ballot for the primary.  Not a lot to do today and I'm ok with that.  I'll have off of on Friday so another fast and furious week.  I'll deal.

I read the polls for Wisconsin governor and Mandela and Francesca both have a good chance at beating Tom Tiffany.  You can't help but like Mandela when you meet him.  You want to adopt him and I gave my word.  I voted for him.  I'll vote for Fran if she's the winner.  I like Fran too. I worry because Wisconsin is not New York as far as a Democrat Socialist is concerned.  Why not?  Corinne reminded me that there were Milwaukee mayors who were Democrat Socialists.  I have no problem with a Democrat, Socialist. I have a problem with MAGA though.  Whoever it is, please bet Tom Tiffany.  Please.

Yeah.  I was wishing for a lightning storm in a certain capitol Saturday night. Wishing for someone to speak with a metal umbrella.  I'm human.  They're not.  A person gets exhausted when you see a picture of white supremacists on a metro train online.  That poor girl.  Hope she's safe.

One of my sister's in-laws has an advanced form of cancer where hospice is being recommended.  That's so horrible.  I know that the in-law has been dealing with it for 6 years.  I have a lot of empathy for his situation.

I don't have a lot of sympathy for the financial part.  My sister showed me the Go Fund me page that family members put up.  This in law traveled to another country for this holistic treatment early on.  They're asking for money for him to go back.  They estimate about 40 grand and they want 12 grand.  I'm so sorry about the situation but when you have a bowling alley and a swimming pool at your house, you GTFO asking for money from others.  I know a lot more but I'm going to keep my outrage to the minimum.

I cried when the radiologist said it looked like cancer and I said I can't afford it.  I made payments.  Every time I got a bonus?  Went towards paying my medical.  Every time I got a tax refund?  Went towards my medical.  My insurance initially had a $500 deductible and $1500 maximum.  It changed in 2021 to $1200 deductible and $2500 maximum.  A lot of the money I spent went towards that shot. I didn't have to do it but I was too afraid not to do it.  I was happy to end it when I did because I was drowning financially.  About 2 months after treatment ended, we got our rent raised $250.  If it didn't end then, it would have had to end at that point.  I don't make a bad salary but it's not a salary that doesn't hurt from this at times.  

You know what it's like when people talk about their vacations or how they can't afford to change cars when all you want to do is go get your nails done and not feel like it's a big deal financially?  I don't miss that part of my life going into the office.  I felt like such a failure because all my money went towards either keeping my car alive or me.  

So yeah I have great empathy for the in-law who is suffering.  If they can get the money great.  Good for them. I just can't with people that always have to keep grabbing for more money.  There's a lot of people who would like to try other options with their cancer and can't because affording it is hard enough.  

This year I finally paid off the ultrasound I had to have last year when they found cysts.  It was like $880?  And then they added about another $300 when I paid $200 at the time thinking I was getting ahead.  Nope.  Medical issues for us have really hurt us way more and we don't ask anyone for money.  

Oh well.  So far the only thing I've had is a broken blood vessel in my nose and a sinus infection.  If that's the worse I have this year?  I consider that lucky.   

Hopefully nobody is billing my insurance for anymore urinary catheters.  I did report that as fraud.

Sigh.  Life is hard.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  

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