Decompress and Breathe Sunday

 I hope I can.  It definitely piled up on me last night in my head. 

I did flip on the news for a little bit for my mom and my own curiosity.  I am now trying to accept that we may have a brokered convention next month or is it an open convention?  I just wish everyone's minds would be made up.  This affects all of us.  It's maddening and we got Trump and his followers with their Kotex pads on their ears ready to take over.

My daily situation needs to change for the better.  It can and figuring out how to work it out will be the tricky part so I don't make myself look like a malcontent. I think having almost 3 years of someone watching me and reporting me for every little thing is a good reason.  I will be met with silence if I come out with that way.  They know the truth.  They choose to stick their head in the sand and I kind of came to that realization this week.  I just have to keep focusing on the new opportunities that will be within another group in the future as my focus when I am asked.  I had thought about so many moments where something was said to me and I think did the lurker find this?  It's not a healthy situation.

I'll be back at the cancer center on Thursday.  Thankful my appointment is 1:30.  I had started off with my shots around that time once a month and it was nice to have the afternoon to go for a walk, get a Starbucks or go to Whole Foods and then it kept getting pushed back to where it was 3:00 which was fine but then the traffic sucked.  I can take my time taking city streets home. I suspect the freeway entrance going home is closed so I will venture through the horrible streets of Milwaukee to find my way back.  I was hoping to have shown up after not being there a year like 50 pounds lighter.  Yeah, that definitely didn't happen.  I know I had been off another drug for about 7 months and it seemed like I was able to start losing slowly and then thank you new prescription that put an end to it.  Yeah.  It's been fun in the weight department but I'm showing up and tell them to just put down beyond fat for my weight.  I accept it.  I will keep working on it.  I will get there.

I am worried about our rent situation again. I have zero trust in my landlord.  When I showed him the lawn in a text, he said something about the lawn mower needing fixing but he came over here around 8:30 to try to do something.  There are still weeds that you get caught up in when you step down to the garage.  We are worried that he will be seeking more money from us in another month or so and we don't have it.  We just don't.  We have to supplement him because of him and his wife's fitness apparel line?  How is that fair?  How is that ok?  I mentioned to him that I got hit by a semi weeks ago, not to gain sympathy but to remind him that other people have bad things happen.  He's not the only one hurting financially.  He helped hurt us financially!  And he's so insensitive about it with his lectures.

Ugh, ok, decompress.  Breathe.  Have a sip of water.  Pet Precious. 

When I called Aurora on Friday to find out the status of my refund check, the woman that I spoke to had the name Precious.  I don't think she would have liked it if I said that was my cat's name.

I do like the name.  Just not a good idea to ask a human that.  She was rather humorless for a woman with a kitty cat's name.  

I need to see some dogs on my walk today.  Too many humans.