Mental Health Days

I am so looking forward to having off on Friday and Monday.  I mean, mom going to the doctor always makes me nervous but I think she's doing ok.  I just need a break mentally.

Yesterday didn't turn out as bad as I thought but I had a couple of incidents that just embarrassed me.  One wasn't so bad.  The person thought I didn't do something and in actuality, they weren't paying attention.  Sometimes in my daily life, I feel like I'm the scape goat for when something goes wrong when I know that's not the case but I accept it.  I think the person realized that and it kind of threw me off but eh, that wasn't so bad.

The next thing was bad.  Someone got asked about how our group handles things and someone chimed in about something small.  It's important but in the grande scheme of things, this person made it out to be a lot bigger and I thought well we all know who handles that.  That would be me.  I admitted it and I got asked more questions.  I kind of hung my head down and said I try.  The person back pedaled that it only happened a couple of times.

This is the part that I take issue with.  You made issue out of something that happened a couple of times?  It made it awful for me because there was a lot of people witnessing that.  The person that asked was understanding towards me.  The person who said it just disappointed me.  They embarrassed me. I think they may realize I'm not bad when others are handling the same thing when I'm out.  It's happened to me from time to time so I can let it go.  In front of many others?  Yeah.  That's not great.

On the plus side, our new assignments won't be as bad as I thought. I won't be taking back the Thinker's area.  I'll be in a smaller group within our group with Regina.  No.  Don't trust her but it is what it is.  I'll survive.

If you have an assistant who works hard and makes mistakes, please show them some grace.  The ones who care really take their work to hard and it can be so crushing when someone calls them out in front of others.  You hurt their pride.  If you have to say something to someone about your assistant?  Please talk to someone privately.  Show them some grace.  The person who did it yesterday isn't a bad person.  Just a lack of self awareness.  Sad to say I've gotten worse from others over the years.  

It's the diva?  All bets are off.  Especially if you find her Tik Tok page dancing to Stevie Nicks. 

Have a good day good humans.  Be kind to the ones struggling. 

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