Lost in Bay View

I thought maybe I'd go take a drive to Bay View and do my walking there.  Less gas.  Well maybe not that much but I thought I'd walk down KK and see if I could find the library.  Funny thing. I keep my iPhone with me and you'd think that I would look up the address but not yesterday.  No, I was a long way from a leisurely walk to their library from where I was parked.  Long way.

I realized that as I went half way down KK when I didn't want to go under the bridge that was coming up.  I was already feeling annoyed by some of the businesses and some of the hipsters I saw.  I don't get it.  I lived there for almost 20 years and KK was always a little run down.  Not horrible but kind of shabby looking buildings.  Now it's the happening place to be.  I don't get it.  I thought about a business that had crochet classes and when I saw the business I kept walking. I think I'd rather take a class at Michael's if they have one.  

So at some point I took a turn and decided to walk back. I knew I was parked by Delaware Street.  That's where the Milwaukee County Democratic Party has their offices.  I took a long walk and wondered why the numbers were getting smaller.  I knew I was looking for 2900 but that didn't seem to be happening.

I found myself on Superior Street.  I knew it would take me to Oklahoma so I thought ok.  Now I know. I didn't realize how far back I was from where I parked.  It was fine. I got my steps in.  Oh my god.  Did I ever get my steps in.

I had stopped at the Pick n Save from my old neighborhood.  I still hate it.  So damn busy and their parking lot sucks.  Once I got back to my car, I felt depressed.

The neighborhoods were nice in that area but the houses were kind of run down and it's such high rent in that area.  I don't know why.  I don't know why it became such a hip and trendy spot.  Maybe it was seeing the gas prices.  

I tried parking at the Bay View library parking lot.  If I did go for that class, I'd have to park on the street.  Their parking lot is set up weird.  It made me annoyed so I took off. I thought I'd take a look around and maybe check out a book.  It had been years since I stepped in there.  It's a nice library.  Don't get me wrong, there's some decent businesses there.  I just don't get how it's become the cool place.

I felt depressed hearing the news about what happened in Virginia and how they're going to gerrymander in all the southern states.  Hate is a strong word but I hate the Republican party and their hatred of anyone that's struggling in life.  

I keep going back to Kamala Harris talking to a reporter about people should be able to buy a Christmas present or go on vacation.  I think of how she was going to expand Medicaid, I think?  She took care of her mom when she was sick with colon cancer.  How come those ideas are so bad for others?  How come?  

I even cancelled my last appointment in October.  I thought it doesn't make sense for me to drive out to Mequon.  I'll go back to Bay View in the new year and if whoever I go to suggests I see a specialist, I'll go with their recommendation and hope it's not such a far drive. Not all of a Bay View sucks.  I liked their clinic and the person that took my blood wasn't brutal when they did it either.  I figure I'm good for the most part.  I'll see my dentist in early fall and that's it.  

We got the ambulance bill in the mail.  My mom seems to think that Medicare might be able to take care of it.  She has a more logical mind set this time around where last time it just overwhelmed her.  She doesn't want me to have to take care of it. I don't care if I have to take care of it.  It is what it is.  It's ok.  I don't want her life to be hard at this stage.  

I don't want anyone's life to be hard.  It's just downright unbearable some days when you hear what's happening.

I should be able to go take a drive on the east side and take my walks.  What do I have?  Nothing.  I should be able to do that if anything.

I'm going to try to find some positive in the day and work on my mind set.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  

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