Grieving

We had the news on to laugh at the person calling names to our favorite orange fascist.  Chris Hayes showed the videos of people getting attacked by the thugs in masks and I got up after it was done.

I got a kleenex or  puffs because it was too much.  I cried.  It was the guy that was on the ground that had all the agents on him and they lifted him off the ground and he's yelling to people his girlfriend's name.  It got to me.  It really got to me.  You could hear the whistles.

I am just grieving for this country.  The cruelty is too much.  I don't know if I can ever forgive anyone who voted for this and think this is ok.  

Been hit with cancer and a semi and survived both.  I don't know if I can take this.  I can but damn it.  This is just awful.  

I'm so sad that this is what people thought it would be ok.  It's not ok.  

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