My Wish List

You can get a wish or two when you've gone through a health situation, can't you?

I know I wish for love and that there's someone who will love and say, you're enough.

Obviously, I would like to start off as friends and be comfortable with that person.  I don't want what I had with the few relationships I had.  Start off as a high and get yanked down and crushed.  I would like a slow burn.

I would like to actually go on a date.  With this person.  It doesn't have to be going out to eat. It could be going to a movie or going to an event.  It definitely wouldn't be at Pizza Hut.  It wouldn't be dramatic and over the top on the romance.  It would be really nice and comfortable.  It would just be nice to be around someone who would open a door for me.  Take my hand unexpectedly and hold it.  Kind of surprise me with that kiss.  It would be a kiss I knew was coming at some point and when that happens, it would be a really nice surprise.

It would be nice to have someone look at me as a human being and not a human disaster.  Or someone who has had cancer and looks at me with pity and sadness.    

No rain.  We can save that for a walk but if I pull out my mascara, I don't want the rain messing it up.

It's my wishful thinking moment.


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