Back to the Struggle

Glad I had an afternoon off even if it means more emails, more problems.  I felt pretty overwhelmed and frustrated with people.  Not all.  Just some. 

I was hoping I could see the solar lights when I came home but I don't know if the guys have it set up yet.  It looks pretty so I look forward to seeing more light.  I can't remember the last time I came home late.  Oh wait. I can.  It's when I took my mom to the ER after she fell in the basement. I had left the yard light on while we went out in the pouring rain.  The monster turned the light off.  Control freak.

It appears I have lost the last bottle of cream that helps me with my eczema.  I have a horrible itch from the fabric of these pjs on my chest and  I got a nice welt.  Thanks Great Fava.  I forgot to ask about it at my last appointment so not sure if I can get a refill or if I'll need to make an appointment.  Maybe I'll find it but it seems like ever since he made out like we would have to move, I've misplaced so much stuff.  It's so annoying.

I set my alarm to 5:30 this morning.  I thought maybe I should start giving myself a little grace with sleeping in. I don't have to get in a car and go anywhere.  I've probably needed more rest since the 90s.  Half the time I crawl back into sleep and sleep for another 45 minutes or hour, so let's try this little experiment.

The diva and thinker have to go into the office closest to them to meet someone of importance.  I'm kind of out of the range of that expectation but for some reason if that day ever comes, I looked last night for clothes that might seem more acceptable on Amazon.  Stupid weight gain. I hope it never comes to that and I don't like the idea of leaving my mom home alone for a long day like that.  I'll stay prepared.

The thing is, I did my time with playing the game. I still have to in some respect but not like I used to in the past.  All I got was more disrespect so we're kind of through with it.  I'm not going to go to any craft fairs for bonding.  I feel bad not realizing my sister was so good at crafts that I should have looked for something to get her instead of grumbling in my head that I was bored as hell.  

I was a little worried about Precious this morning.  She seemed like she wanted to eat but she ignored anything I got her.  I know she's a year in a couple of months.  She did take my cream cheese because I did have a bagel this morning so she seems to be good.  She just might have wanted more snuggling.  I can do that.  I don't take for granted her age or health.  That last vet visit traumatized us all.  I know if I take her in for her vaccines to my old vet, there will be blood work done and more tears probably.  I believe in vaccines.  I'm just so scared to hear of any problems or hear about time.  I don't feel like I have enough time about anything.

Well that was cheerful.  Geez.

I hope the good humans have a good day.