4 Am Headache

 I have TMJ so most mornings I need to take something from my jaw being clenched.  Even in my sleep.  This morning, I had a whopper of a headache when I got up at 4.  It felt like maybe it was sinus related.  I didn't even care if the Excedrin kept me up.  It didn't.  I felt relief and that's all that I needed.  I still feel it a bit so maybe it's weather related.  My head hurts from everything I guess.  

Looks like Charlie left for work before 6.  I don't envy him driving that far to work.  If he can work from home most of the time, I guess it's not so bad.  My mom worried about making noise because he was working from home yesterday.  Well most people are used to a little noise.  It's not like she's going to river dance.  I was a little more mindful about opening and closing doors.  With the monster, I didn't give a damn because I knew he wasn't working.  I was used to dogs barking for almost 4 1/2 years non stop.  I sat by a copier at work and I hated it.  It seemed to be where everyone congregated and talked about all their UTIs, IBS and other acronyms that was TMI.  Some of the women talked about their sons whipping it out and peeing in the snow at random one day and I popped my head up from my cubicle to tell them, "I'm on a phone call."  They scattered away in embarrassment.  Yes.  I was on the phone with my mom.  It was a phone call, they didn't need to know who but I don't need to hear the words "whipping it out".  Go away.  Most of you have offices.  I get asked to change toner.  Buzz off.

When I walked the few blocks to the beauty school the other night, I noticed some of the apartments and wondered what Cassie's apartment was like when her and her husband lived downtown.  My mom asked if I ever got to see it and I said no.  I got to see plenty of what she did downtown but never an invite.  I was surprised she invited me for that manicure and pedicure session.  I would have been ok just to meet at a Starbucks or a nearby coffee place.  It's amazing how people will do a generous act but can't just do simple things when that's all that you wanted from them.  I'm still haunted by that friendship, I guess. Or maybe what I thought was a friendship.  I don't know.

I looked up how much my old hairstylist is now charging for a hair cut.  $70.  It was $66 when I stopped going 2 years ago.  Plus a 20% tip.  I'd be up to about $84 now.  The other night I paid $20 and added $3.  Parking was free since it was after 6 but when I do use the meters, I think I maybe put in about 4 or 5 bucks.  Safe to say I found a better choice.  I was surprised when Corinne told me that she pays $85 for a haircut in the small town she lives in.  I'll have to send mom over with her flowbee if she is looking to cut costs.

I am looking for some exercise DVDs on Amazon that might help me in the mornings.  I'll get reimbursed for it but I wasn't sure if the DVD player I had was working.  When my mom helped me get set up, she accidentally knocked over a cat figurine that broke.  I didn't tell her it broke.  She would feel bad.  I don't.

I actually have a second one like this.  An attorney I worked for got them for me for an administrative assistant's day and a gift card from Hobby Lobby.  Do I look like a Hobby Lobby person?  No, I don't, people, but I said my thank yous and the figurines were decent.  Kind of funny. I walked to the one in my neighborhood and got another one like the one that he gifted me. I actually used the gift card for a gift exchange of ornaments. I knew everyone else would like Hobby Lobby stuff so why not?  

That person who gave me the figurine wasn't very nice to me so I didn't consider it a great loss that it broke.  I think of the times he pulled me in his office and showed me a mistake.  He would glare at me like don't you ever do that again and I would apologize, hang my head down and walk back to my desk in shame.  The generous gifts were just an excuse for bad behavior.  

No diva and thinker today.  They have to go into their location's office to meet the higher ups.  I like the thinker but I was getting distracted by her messages yesterday.  I am struggling as it is so I hope maybe they're back online Friday, they'll be too busy to see how I'm doing.  I'm still here.  Still struggling.

I am worried about my mom.  She's struggling with her sugar.  She wants to see a dietician.  She hasn't been able to get out and walk this week.  When she has, her sugar has been better.  I hate that she has diabetes.  

I hope the good humans have a good day.