A Quieter Day and Hopefully Evening

I'm not sure but I am wondering if they have gone away.  Permanently would be nice, but we suspect that we have the dog sitter.  They've been gone for the day and that's a good damn thing.

Just felt angry about what happened.  My eyes were so red from lack of sleep and just felt pissed off.  We don't have family here so it's just the two of us. I was hoping for a couple of quiet days where I could get some things done. I straightened up my work area in the dining room because it was cluttered.  I would bring in the mail and leave it on my work area so I mostly had junk mail sitting out that needed to be shredded.  If only putting someone in a shredder was a bad thing, but I digress.  I thought how nice for them to go on a vacation after he throws a tantrum like a 31 year old child.  Maybe I should go stand outside and scream the F word on New Years Eve with the cat?  Well, he'd have me arrested or start screaming at me too, so that's not a great idea either.  We talked about finding a new place in 2025.  We don't feel hopeful but we got to find something to get away from him.  He's nuts.  Spoiled brat.  Thanks for ruining my two days off.  

I was watching a documentary series on Vogue.  It wasn't anything wild, mostly good background noise more than anything.  I was able to get some sleep back and when I came out to the living room my mom was watching a movie.  She offered to have it restarted and I said no. It's fine.  I was just glad that she wasn't watching the news.  I'll probably forget what happened in the movie when I watch it at a different time.

I watched Jamie Foxx's special. Not really a comedy.  I knew that watching it.  I was curious.  What happened? I saw the news reports and wondered if he was ok and he really wasn't.  I thought it was beautiful that his youngest daughter played music while he wasn't doing so well in the hospital but it seemed to help turn him around.  What a lovely young girl and it was beautiful to hear her play.  Music is healing.  It's joy. Life isn't all happy go lucky days so we have to find those moments of joy and embrace them.  It was an interesting special.  

Well Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah, or is Chrismakkuah?  I can't keep up with the trends.  I've been trying to stick with the happy holidays because it's just a nice thing to say and it covers everyone.  Fox News needs to kick making up stuff that people believe or the morons on Tik Tok. I hope this time is more peaceful for everyone and there's no monsters that are making their lives difficult.

I can't stand that guy.  Have I mentioned that?  I'm angry today.  I'm better, but just angry.

On the plus side, Charlotte loved all of her gifts that I sent her.  She seemed to love that little striped kitty I sent her.  She loves her cats.

Me too, Charlotte.  Me too.  Ok, not feeling so angry.  Is it bad that I want someone to wind up on a Dateline mystery?  Like a person who lives downstairs?

This is why I wouldn't define myself as a good human.  I got bad human thoughts like that. I try though.  I really try.

Have a good night, good humans.  


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