Sad Friday

 Well the week went by fast and I felt productive.  I'm not in the doghouse for my new work assignment.  I got asked if I feel uncomfortable asking for help.  It isn't that I feel uncomfortable. I don't get listened to when I do ask for help.

I can ask for help if I feel like I need something on a medical level.  People?  Not so much.  Ninety five percent of the people I've encountered don't listen.  It's a rarity when someone does listen.

I don't know why, I should be happy Friday is here and I am having a bad day emotionally.  I own it and it will pass.  

It was a conversation my mom had last night jokingly that I could live with my nephew in Florida some day. I know my mom will not be here forever.  I'm afraid that forever may end sooner than I'm prepared.  I know my life will change in another earthquake kind of way like when my dad passed.

I know, why think about something like that?  Well I know I don't have anything here in Milwaukee for me to stay in the long term.  Would I like to stay here in Milwaukee?  I would like that but I'm afraid that may not be a reality for me.  And that makes me heartbroken.  I swear my heart is little crumbles you can sprinkle on an ice cream cone.

Maybe the day will get better and these bad feelings will pass.  The sun is out and it's Friday.  I made it this week.  I'm going to get through another day and I know I can.

I just feel really bad at the moment and I wish someone would console me.  

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