Having choices and being aware

 For the week I have my sister and brother in law here and they are trying to help us with the monster downstairs.  My brother in law installed some motion sensor lights.  When they left to visit his mother, the monster unscrewed the light bulb.  My mom screwed it back in.

This is the type of stuff that we deal with.  Petty and stupid things.  And some horrendous things like taking my utility bill from $165 to $255.  I had a $400 utility bill last July.  Yes, I know we had a rotten summer that was hot.  We had some 100 degree days in August and once the locks got put back on, what do you know?  The electricity bill went down.  It didn't make a difference or help me but at least it gave me an indication that the monster is a thief.

For the week, I will sleep a little better having some back up support that could maybe help us cope better with the situation until the karma gods maybe come for him next month?  That's wishful thinking on my part, but ugh, my mom and I both felt exhausted that even with people here, the monster can't help himself.  He leaves the side door unlocked just to be annoying all night long.  Obviously we lock our doors and after this week we will have some ring alarms to alert us if something is weird is going on.

The friend who viewed me as a pity friend bragged about a job offer her daughter had and how she was going to live in one state because the state the job was in didn't have women's rights.  I had no words for that.  Just say one state seems like a great place to live and leave it at that.

I wish I had a choice.  I don't care what their politics are.  I don't have to like them.  I want peace and safety and I try to tell myself, don't harp or get all poor people indignant over someone has money and maybe made better career choices.  Being aware is a big deal.  Knowing that not everyone has the same opportunities and being mindful of that is a big deal.  

Before my job role got changed, I worked with such a lovely attorney.  She has three really sweet kids and probably lives in a nice home in a nice northeastern suburb.  Unlike Lois, she would say hello to me in a store.  I never thought Oh must be nice to be you to have an Apple watch or go on a family vacation.  The year that I had so much medical, I revealed I had been diagnosed with cancer four years earlier and I was fine, but I seem to be having problems.  I said I will probably have to keep taking off because every time I have an appointment, I wind up with three new ones.  She understood and avoided people questioning my whereabouts with generic answers and at Christmas time, she emailed me a gift certificate to Whole Foods and told me to quit talking about shoplifting cookies because she didn't do criminal law.  She has a sense of awareness of how others may have their own struggles.

I don't want to move to another state or a city regardless of how they feel about women. I want to have a choice to live in a nice place without a sociopath.

I'm very grateful for this week and will be very helpful with anything that can help us.  I hope it helps.  I appreciate the effort.  I got about 3 cases of blueberry Sparkling Ice water for my brother in-law for his help.  I'll buy more if I have to, if it helps me with the monster.