I Want to Go home

 Tomorrow we are going to stop by an open house at a 4 family building.  It sounds in our price range and the neighborhood is decent.  We drove by and it seems ok.

I don't know why I want to be back in my old home.  Maybe the neighborhood than the old home.  I miss my old neighborhood and it's changed where I don't know if I would like it.

I grew up in South Milwaukee.  There wasn't anything there and there wasn't anything to do.  We lived 5 blocks from Lake Michigan and I had no friends. I had friends but they never lasted.

Once we moved to Bay View, I lost any friends that I had.  I made new ones and I felt like I belonged at the time.  The people I came across were working class and I felt more in synch.

Now Bay View is the "happening" place where all the cool people hang out.  Great.  Thanks for making rent higher.  Jackasses.  

I thought my next door neighbor would have helped me with the monster downstairs and now he pretends he doesn't know us when we say hello.  I know he reports the monster for the dog poop and the unkept lawn.  He knows we get blamed for it and the monster will find revenge on us.

I'd like a home where I feel safe.  I don't want to keep moving into places that are even smaller and I'm more cramped.

I've never asked much and I didn't ask for this.  I so badly want a better housing solution.  I just want better.  I earned the right to feel safe in my home.