The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I was going to make a nail appointment for Friday but I couldn't.  They were booked. I had thought about maybe making an appointment when I have time off until I read some recent reviews.  Sometimes people go off for no reason with their reviews.  I left one for a Walgreens after I was angry.  I made a comment about the "bald" clerk being rude about my flu shot.  I didn't mean to attack someone for lack of follicles.  Cheap shot on my part.  It was a bad experience. It sounds like my friendly nail salon has had to deal with angry people.  I kind of feel like maybe some of this has to do with Covid protocols.  I also see that they now require people to put down a deposit and won't refund it if people show up late.   I think I'm going to pass.  Sounds too complicated for me.  And angry.  I still think it's a great place for getting nails done but I think Covid has made some people angry, anxious and just different...

 Now matter how rough work might get, or how many times my emails make me reach for a Kleenex,  I got to think about the good things for this week. Today, our landlord helped us hook up the new stove he replaced.  With housing so high, I am grateful we are paying reasonable rent.  Don't care for the downstairs tenant but maybe he can find a place someday where he can scream filthy stuff at women.   I have off a day and a half.  Yeah, I got my shot on Thursday afternoon but I get the reward of a Starbucks for myself and that's ok.  I'm about halfway through my treatment.  And nice not to have to pay any medical at the moment.  I know that will change but I think I maybe have around $300 left to pay.  FREE MRI!  WOO HOO!  Ugh.  One more year down with $2500 maximum of paying medical.   I'll have Friday off. I  can sleep in.  I might call the nail salon in Shorewood and see if I can get an appointment...

 No harm in anyone reading my Friday post since I've only had 4 views on my blogs and I think I'm one of them. I don't like talking or thinking about the person that wrecked havoc on my life for a long time.  I think it was a painful lesson.  I equate this person somewhere between Newt Gingrich and Sandra Bullock's ex-husband Jesse James.  Just a bad human.  Very bad.  Hiding in sheep's clothing. I don't want to be around bad humans.  I know that is unavoidable but I'd like to keep it to a minimum if possible.  People tell me they miss my sense of humor now that we work at home.  Well good for you.  I don't miss your back stabbing.  Go watch a Netflix comedy if you need humor.   I have been thinking about the nail salon I used to go to in Shorewood.  It was right near their library and I always parked my car there.  I'm not sure what the owner's nationality was, but he was a nice man, along with his wife.  I...

 I had to get a prescription today and I took a walk at lunch.  Hot day and I cut through the park that lead to the grocery store when I pick up my meds or other groceries.  It's only 6 blocks.  I happened to see a young girl dressed in a bikini top and sarong positioning herself on a park bench.  She seemed to be looking towards me and sneering as I walked past. I realize I may not have the physique to wear a bright sarong and bikini top in the middle of a park where really, nobody cares but I have something she will never have and that's good manners.  Yes.  I'm middle aged.  Yes.  I was wearing my knit shorts, sustainable sneakers and a sleeveless shirt from Kohls that highlighted my chubby physique.  I am also comfortable and ok with who I am.  Yes, I would like to be a lower weight.  I would like not to feel awkward when summer is here with trying to find something to fit.  Easy to hide behind sweaters in winter....

 It wasn't No Way Out that I saw with Jeff Bridges. That was Kevin Costner.  Kind of a similar love story and I think James Woods was in that?  How can I forget Against All odds? I can forget movie titles like that. If only we could forget some things. Still afraid to check my email this morning.  I tell myself I'm at home and nobody can see me cry. A lot easier to cry at home then to go hide in the parking lot with sunglasses and try to hide it with make up. People can be disappointing  I get tired of being the brunt of someone's stress.  

 Watched 3 episodes of The Old Man this weekend.  I love Jeff Bridges.  It's a good story.  Good actors, John Lithgow, Amy Brenemann.  And two cute dobermans.  I love the fact his character has two dobermans.  My heart broke when I heard Jeff Bridges almost died having covid while he was getting chemo.  When I was a teenager, my sister and her boyfriend took me to see No Way Out with him and James Woods. I thought how could Rachel Ward be with James Woods?  Still wonder that.  James Woods is a creep.  Jeff Bridges is a good actor and he was super dreamy in that movie years ago.  Still a good looking old guy.    I only walked my hill today.  Yesterday I stayed in.  My mom's hip hurt and it worried me.  She slept it off, she said it was a spasm but for some reason, I just wanted to be around my mom.  Even if she was arguing with the cat while I tried to go to sleep last night.  At least it's a s...

 I got a notification on my phone Monday that the IRS would be depositing money into my account. Breathe. Paid off what was left of medical balance. Put myself one car payment ahead on my car balance Bought another gift for my grand niece's birthday in a few weeks. Breathed again. No, it won't solve my problems but it helps.  I wasn't in dire straits but getting horribly frustrated that it was taking so long. I know.  Good things happen to those who wait. What happens if you give up?  

 I'm kind of ok.  It's an improvement but it's not ok. I haven't gotten my federal tax refund back and I feel like crying.  I am not hurting financially, but would this money help me? Yes!  I could at least wipe out my medical bill balance for now if I had the money and be able to pay for any bills that popped up at the end of the year. I filed a paper return and I know there's a $20 mistake which is actually in my favor.  I don't know why I keep checking every day because I feel like it's never going to happen.  I did get a nice state refund and bonus at work that helped me out.  Now I could use the money from my federal refund.  It's a lot.  I earned it.  I really earned it. The last 2 months with work has been mentally draining  I think seeing my sister and her husband helped my mood the last few weeks but I felt a deep anxiety every time I signed in.  I felt like a failure and felt like someone was waiting to yell at me in ...

 I hung up on someone that works in customer service for my medical provider today. I wasn't mad.  I was annoyed.  I was tired and hung up while they looked for a number for me to call.   I've been through this drill.  You'll have to call this person.  No, you'll have to call these people. No, I'm hanging up.  I'm done.  It's been part of my stress dealing with medical bills. It was really simple.  I get a bill each month for my month, well, for any medical thing.  Somehow December wound up on the billing but eh, whatever.  It got paid off a couple of weeks ago.   For some reason, I got a notice when my May bill came in and it asked for me to put it on a payment plan.  I thought ok.  I didn't know how I could combine it but I was set to pay $50 each month until it's paid off.  No problem.  The bill was $143 My shots usually run $143.  The first bill is the killer because I don't have my deduct...

 I did walk my hill today by the water tower where I walk. I hadn't the last two days since my foot hurt, the humidity was bothering me.  It felt nice.  It's raining now and it's definitely humid where I live but I got a bit of a lake breeze as a I trudged my way up and down the hill listening to Molly Shannon's autobiography on Audible.  Her dad sounded nuts but he reminds me of my own step-dad knocking wigs off of mannequins at Sears over on Mitchell Street back in the 70's. Then I find the latest on the news.  Another shooting.  At a parade.  People dead.  I can't listen to the thoughts and prayers and the whole give a good guy with a gun, blah blah.  Social media has really become the devil as far as I'm concerned. Unless there's a cute picture of my grand niece or any family members, I'm off of Facebook.  And I only troll Bravo Real Housewives divas out of boredom on Instagram.  I like seeing all of the cute family pictures of ...

 It's nice knowing I don't have to wake up early tomorrow. I didn't make my way down the hill towards Lake Michigan.  My left foot just throbbed today and I just assumed it was from the heat.  Turns out I had a tiny blister on my pinky toe when I took my socks off after I got home from our grocery shopping. It used to be that if I didn't break a toe or sprain an ankle, summer hadn't started.  I've broken a few toes and I fractured the tip of my pinky toe on my left foot. I thought that was the culprit of my pain from the humidity.   I'm embarrassed by the corns on my pinky toes.  It wasn't from wearing high heels working in offices.  It started when I was a teen and I was wearing shoes that were too tight.  I mostly wore sneakers and I didn't want to tell my parents that my shoes might be tight.  They had a hard enough time juggling life's bills I felt bad about adding to it. I sold shoes for four years.  Two years in college and tw...

 I don't think I did a very good job at finding the positive yesterday. Let's see North Avenue is open again.  No more detours when I go for my drive and my walk on the weekends The weather is supposed to be decent for the next 4 days and even if there's a little rain, I'll take it. Not just Cassidy Hutchinson is a good reminder that there are decent people out there.  There's also Liz Cheney and Adam Kinzinger.  You don't have to agree with people on politics and you can still be a decent person.  Decency matters. Four day weekend.  Lots of good stuff to stream.   My blood pressure was a good number.  It's not bad, but it creeps towards hypertension.  It's the best it's been in a long while.  If only the scale did the same thing. I'm going to find my pineapple drink at Starbucks this week. I have 440 letters done for Vote Forward and 250 postcards done for Postcards to Swing States.ff I downloaded a book about the Royals and I read...