Walking in the Rain

Today is Friday.  That's all.  Seems like a big joke to say Oh, happy 4th of July!  Lots of people getting kicked off their insurance and kids losing school lunches!  Yay!

I was hoping to be surprised by someone with a heart that would say no to this bill.  It was a small hope.  I had a feeling it was going to pass.  And who is this ass clown Derrick Van Orden?  Take the err out of his name and it fits.  Corinne said he was at the Capitol on January 6th.  He's an awful person. 

My mom will probably get her snap benefits cut or taken away.  Not sure which but it sounds like we'll have until the end of next year.  Time to hustle and make things better before then.  How?  I don't know.  I'll figure it out.  We make it work.

I keep thinking about that interview that Kamala Harris did where she said people shouldn't have to just get by.  They should be able to go on that vacation or buy those Christmas gifts that want to buy.  I want to cry when I thin about it.  That's me. 

I realized after my blood test that I'll probably get a bill for it.  I know it was necessary.  I understand it.  I think oh, damn.  One more for the pile.  Damn damn damn it.

I thought I'll eat less and well that diet seems to be working badly but it's working.  I ate some breakfast and got a horrible case of the hangries that I did stop at Target for my Shopkick adventure to find something to snack on.  I got a six pack of dried cranberries that made me feel less crabby.  I'm going to get more today.

I was reading a little bit more on how to lower cortisol.  Switch lives with someone else might help.  I did read that dried cranberries helps with blood sugar, I guess.  Well I guess that's my go to food for a case of the hangries.  Corinne's comment about stress made me wonder if some of my issues might have been related to that as well.  At the end of the day it's me.  My life is stressful, it's how do I manage it?

I know during that time our landlord told us that he was selling, I back slid and didn't count my points like a good girl because after I would sign off of work, we would get in my car and drive around a certain area searching for rental signs that didn't exist.  Normally I would have gone for a walk at that time because it was after daylight savings time.  I would go to sleep wondering if we would have to move into a one bedroom or a motel for awhile until things got better.

I ended treatment at the end of July 2023.  Our landlord showed up at the beginning of September 2023 wanting the extra $250 a month.  I have been in high stress mode since then, worried when he's going to drop the hammer on us again.  He told my mom that someone buying this place might ask for $1500 a month for rent.  No, he wanted $1500 a month.  

My mom shared with me that after he bought this place, he commented that rent was low in West Allis and he said it in disgust.  Yeah, it was reasonable when we moved here.  It's an old factory town and it was closer for me to drive to work every day.  What's wrong with people living in affordable housing?  Is that not ok with you, Great Fava?  Why isn't a person's right to have decent rent?  He disgusts me. 

I did ok for the day food wise. Anytime I thought of getting something, I thought of someone shaming me and refrained.  I guess I should picture the Great Fava shaming me if I think about food.  He was after all, a personal trainer for people with money even though he went through some fat periods.  Fat head.

I did get my emissions test done and well, looks like I passed.  Yay me.  Now paying for it is the fun part.  I can borrow from savings to do it.  All for a stupid sticker.  I get it but it doesn't mean I want to pay for it either.

Looks like I'll be getting caught up in the rain a little bit this morning.  I'll go to a couple of stores and maybe get a walk in.  I'd like to finish listening to my audible book.  I'm listening to Christine Blasey Ford's book and she was going through the letters that were sent to her that were awful.  

We've been taken over by white supremacists.  I don't feel like celebrating it.

I hope the good humans have a good day.   I'm going to daydream about walking with someone in the rain.