Patience Interlude

This one came to me when I was getting my nail done and drifting off to interlude land.

I think of him.  That person.  He is soft spoken and kind of shy.  He knows how to hold his own and he is in a position of authority.  People respect him.  Personally, things haven't always been the easiest for him.

He is patient.  He is so incredibly patient with me.  He talks to me softly and smiles when I make a bad joke.  He explains things kindly and not in a condescending manner.  He shows concern when I tell him about a bad day.  He is thoughtful with his words.

He takes time with things.  He helps when I don't understand something and he makes sure that I understand.  He doesn't think I'm less than because of some of my life's experiences.  He understands.

We talk a lot and spend time around each other even though his time is busier than mine.  He knows how to communicate when we're away and he makes time that just really surprises me.

Sometimes it's just nice to be around him.  It's nice to lean my head on his shoulder or touch his hand.  It's nice to have him put an arm around me in a protective manner as we walk and talk.  Sometimes we don't need to talk.  Sometimes just sitting by him and touching his hand is the comfort that's needed.  

Yes, I have R rated thoughts about this imaginary person but this ain't that type of blog.  

His patience is a massive turn on.  

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